Liminal space. It's part of the healing process, it's the darkest point before the dawn. The light is just there, on the other end of this corridor of self care and work.
What the eff does that even mean? It means quit trying to speed shit up. Hang tight. Don't panic. It means everything is working out for your best good if you can keep your stuff together and work on being your healthiest spirit rather than piece-mealing haphazard choices together.
Maybe our best tool for activating agency truly is self-care. Not in the expensive commercial products kind of way, but in the actual dedication of time to ourselves--checking in, loving ourselves in the way we want to be treated. If not you, then who? It's up to you, sister, just you, to save yourself.